Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Bad blogger

So I haven't blogged in a while... and in all honesty it's because I haven't been a very good bandster lately...

The scale is stuck.. although it seems to be going up more then down lately. Its bouncing around so much, bouncing around like a yoyo whats with that!

Ive tried all sorts of things to get things moving including a fill last week taking me too 6.1cc in my band the most I've ever had! My hunger is solved but the scale is still not shifting...

I think at the moment I am at the cross road and I just don't know how to keep traveling along the road....

I have a massive mental block with this is the lowest I have been in the last 10 years.

I loved getting to my lowest and have enjoyed all the things it has meant.. new clothes being in a solid smaller size  feeling confident. Its been a great time! but now I am a little sick of being here and am so very ready for thenext thing new territory scary...

So is it my head or my body that is hindering the weight loss or maybe I am yet to totally get that both need to be working together but how do I make that happen hmmmpphhhh!!

I cant wait to get my running groovy back.. maybe thats the key to this whole picture!!

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

No Oprah tickets for me !! So so sad...

Sunday, November 7, 2010


So Oprah is coming to Australia!!! The ticket lottery just closed and I managed to register! I am so excited, Find out tomorrow if I am lucky enough to get some tickets !!!
Fingers and toes crossed!

So the situation is very clear I need a fill , I am going to see if I can get in on Tuesday as I am feeling a little desperate. The hunger today was awful actual painful tummy rumbles only 2 hours after eating it's been a long time since I have felt that! The scale is also so very stuck!

I had a moment over the weekend driving to work.. I was traveling down a hill in my car looking out over the sparkling blue ocean, the sun was shinning the sky was blue and I suddenly had this feeling overwhelm me.. A feeling of needing to get the job done, of conquering the weight loss demons once and for all !  It was like a power within was saying you can do this you just have to try!

So yes I believe I am now at a point where it's stay or keep going! I want and need to keep going. If I only ever lost another 20kg that would be totally ok with me.

Hope you all had a fabulous weekend !